Alcoholism wants to get us alone and kill us, I’ve seen it too much, been there myself. One drink is too many, and a thousand is not enough!
I drank the value out of drinking, it no longer worked like it use to. That is what I remember now, each day, as a sober person in recovery.
And, what are we striving to recover? I have found it to be myself. What I was after in the bottom of every bottle, I found that and more, on my sober journey. A new found freedom and happiness. It comes from within. It’s a return to innocence. In a word, its love! And as it is said, we cannot love another, until we learn to love ourselves! Today, I no longer loath myself. And, I no longer have that constant inner dialogue of how I’m not good enough and how I could have done it better.
“The only thing that truly matters in the end is that you loved!” – Author unknown
“Don’t be afraid to be weak. Don’t be too proud to be strong. Just take a look into your heart my friend. It will be the return to yourself. The return to innocence”.
For many years, I worked hard to build a charmed life. I had been living that life to the fullest until the time came when I took a precipitous fall into the abyss of alcoholism. Unwittingly, I claimed my family as hostages and took them right along with me.
I survived addiction and have been in recovery since February 9, 2007. Since that time I have been working courageously to face down "the ghost" and eliminate the demons of my past.
I find that writing My Story has had great therapeutic value. If along the way, my experience can help one person, or maybe even more, well....that would be pretty awesome.
I also pray that my blog will help illuminate the generational cycle of child abuse that continues to plague our society today. By bringing awareness to what is often called "Our Nations Shame" I have faith that one day soon we will witness real progress toward the illumination and understanding of child abuse, followed by its eradication from the under belly of mankind.
I have faith! But, faith without works is dead. I pray everyday for the strength, the courage, and the resolve, to take action!
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🙂 Thank you for sharing this, I am happy for you. It makes me realise that healing is possible.